As with everything else in life, I come across exactly what I need to hear in the moment. It is exactly what I need to read in that moment. Or be with.
This quote came across my laptop screen from a friend, who shared it with me, because he was going to use it as his new mantra. I agreed with him, because I am in this mode of being lazy. Wanting to follow the pace of nature, I realized that nature never hurries, yet everything, everything gets done in the perfect of time.
I am a Type-A perfectionist child of perfectionist, high-achieving parents. My parents had a really hard life, and they always had to work really hard to get anything done. They had to do, do, do and do some more in order to live a good life. They instilled those same work ethics in me.
Burning out and killing my body, mind, and spirit at the same time – it was a typical way for me to live in this world.
So much so that I would end up in contorted postures where my shoulder spasmed so much or my back was so rigid that I could barely get out of bed in the morning. After medicating myself, and numbing myself as I could, I would get out of bed, to push myself hard once again. Over and over again. (more…)