Your Heart Space Is Waiting for You to Pay Attention

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Heart Space

Yesterday it was a full moon. Normally, the full moon affects me a bit. But yesterday, it affected me a lot. It was as if everything in my life should be rewritten. I hated my job, my country, my life, my limbs, my everything. My heart space was tight.

I wanted to hit the reset button, but there was none to be found. It was as if I was in the middle of a great storm, and I couldn’t see my way out of it. I was in the thick of things, and I was mired with doubts, frustrations, and anxieties.

It was not a good place to be in.

Normally, what I do with these situations is I hit the reset button on myself, by going to sleep. A meal and a nap, if it’s the middle of the day, or a long night of restful sleep, if it’s nighttime, does the trick.

Perhaps, this sleep tactic works for you as well?

But I also realized that by sleeping my problems away, I might be running away from them.

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I Don’t Want To Be Numbed, I Want To Feel Life Fully

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Recently, I was sitting with a couple of women friends of mine. Not close friends or anything. Acquaintances. People I want to get to know better, I think. It’s always iffy with me, because people tire me out so much. But it was a beach party, and I was sitting with them, and I felt like it was a good decision overall. I mean, I was being social. “Look ma, I’m out with people. Not in my room doing my own thing. Like a crazy introvert.” I really wanted to go back home and be on my own, but I was trying to be an adult. Trying to be normal. It was all going so well. Oh boy, was it going well. I was sitting and listening to them speak about how terrible men are, and how women are all goddesses. I nodded at the right moments, and empathized at the other right moments. Ah, we are really connecting, I thought to…

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